[Please End] Crow Armbrust (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
filetofish) wrote2018-04-27 01:15 am
filetofish) wrote2018-04-27 01:15 am
PSLS BECAUSE GAY
[no icons, many SPOILERS for trails of cold steel/sen no kiseki. there's also a lot of gross shit so watch your step.]
I dunno. Just felt dizzy all of a sudden...
[Neither statement is a lie. He really doesn't know what, exactly, is happening to his body, only that it's happening. And the dizziness was very abrupt. But now that Rean's suspicious Crow's lies won't be nearly as convincing.]
[Neither statement is a lie. He really doesn't know what, exactly, is happening to his body, only that it's happening. And the dizziness was very abrupt. But now that Rean's suspicious Crow's lies won't be nearly as convincing.]
Heheh. Better get used to it. I can be a real charmer.
[He is sooo charming and that's why he's running the implant bootup process without warning Rean. There's just a blue flash in his eyes, and then suddenly Rean will feel like his senses all just got way sharper. There's enhancements involved, and he can also now hear someone else's voice in his head.]
Welcome to the force, Rean Schwarzer.
[He is sooo charming and that's why he's running the implant bootup process without warning Rean. There's just a blue flash in his eyes, and then suddenly Rean will feel like his senses all just got way sharper. There's enhancements involved, and he can also now hear someone else's voice in his head.]
Welcome to the force, Rean Schwarzer.
| | [Right he absolutely doesn't buy it now, but... He sighs.] Instructor Beatrix will want to get a better look at you then. Is dizzy the only thing? [He's worried, deeply, but he doesn't know how worried he should be so he's also just trying to be practical.] |
| | [His back goes straight, stiffening with surprise. It feels strange, as his implant activates and suddenly the world is a new place. Looking right into Crow's eyes as it happens is also odd because for a moment it feels like he's staring out of Crow's eyes back at himself. Perhaps Crow feels the same, but it's a bare moment. And then Rean is exhaling the breath he was holding.] ...Are you always this abrupt. |
I try to keep things exciting. They didn't warn you?
[They didn't warn him. Rean's superiors are either too professional for personal comments or jerks who gleefully sent him off to suffer the surprise (lookin' at you, Sara).]
[They didn't warn him. Rean's superiors are either too professional for personal comments or jerks who gleefully sent him off to suffer the surprise (lookin' at you, Sara).]
| | [Sara probably thought it was a great opportunity for Rean to grow.] I wasn't really told anything but your name and official profile. [Same as Crow should have gotten on him. He sighs but he's already over it. It'll be a good experience. He's happy to try new things, anyway, and that includes being mentally connected to someone who right off the bat seems a little bit like his total opposite. But he doesn't dislike Crow, something about him is fundamentally charming.] |
...
[He can't exactly protest seeing Beatrix and also pretend he isn't aware he's fucked. He's not sure what to say -- he can't lie anymore. Either he tells the truth or Rean finds out when tests are run.
He goes quiet, rather than respond. He's looking at his hands, willing them not to tremble, but not saying a word.]
[He can't exactly protest seeing Beatrix and also pretend he isn't aware he's fucked. He's not sure what to say -- he can't lie anymore. Either he tells the truth or Rean finds out when tests are run.
He goes quiet, rather than respond. He's looking at his hands, willing them not to tremble, but not saying a word.]
...Actually... I think I'm dying.
[For real this time. His voice is dull with resignation, but there's fear and sadness there too.]
I knew you'd be pissed off if I didn't tell you, but I-- I wanted us to be happy as long as we could.
[For real this time. His voice is dull with resignation, but there's fear and sadness there too.]
I knew you'd be pissed off if I didn't tell you, but I-- I wanted us to be happy as long as we could.
What...?
[This has to be some kind of joke...? But it's not. It's the furthest thing from a joke. and he's stunned, because what?]
What are you talking about?
[He needs more details, he needs to know what's happening, so then he can... Do something about it?]
[This has to be some kind of joke...? But it's not. It's the furthest thing from a joke. and he's stunned, because what?]
What are you talking about?
[He needs more details, he needs to know what's happening, so then he can... Do something about it?]
[In true Crow fashion, he laughs, bitterly.]
You know how I told you I was afraid this body would expire? I was right. Maybe I jinxed it even.
It's not just getting dizzy. My eyes are getting fuzzy. Sometimes my fingers go numb, or I get really nauseous... This really isn't a body anyone was supposed to inhabit.
You know how I told you I was afraid this body would expire? I was right. Maybe I jinxed it even.
It's not just getting dizzy. My eyes are getting fuzzy. Sometimes my fingers go numb, or I get really nauseous... This really isn't a body anyone was supposed to inhabit.
Couple of months...
[Ugh. He's just going to flop backwards and stare at the ceiling. He's so sick of bad things. He just wanted to be happy with Rean. He quit trying to do stupid shit. He was ready to settle down. It's not fair!]
[Ugh. He's just going to flop backwards and stare at the ceiling. He's so sick of bad things. He just wanted to be happy with Rean. He quit trying to do stupid shit. He was ready to settle down. It's not fair!]
Got it.
[He's draping one arm over his face, but with the other hand he gives a half-hearted thumbs up. He's certainly not going to argue with Rean trying to save his life. He feels hopeless about it himself, but if he's got limited time the last way he wants to spend it is fighting with Rean. So he'll just drag himself along, continuing to move forward until Rean fixes it or his body gives out.]
...Sorry I didn't tell you.
[He's draping one arm over his face, but with the other hand he gives a half-hearted thumbs up. He's certainly not going to argue with Rean trying to save his life. He feels hopeless about it himself, but if he's got limited time the last way he wants to spend it is fighting with Rean. So he'll just drag himself along, continuing to move forward until Rean fixes it or his body gives out.]
...Sorry I didn't tell you.
[He sighs and leans forward, catching Crow's hand and wrapping both his around it.]
I'm still mad at you for that. I thought we went over talking to me. But we'll figure this out and I can yell at you about it at my leisure then, okay?
[He's mad. He's really upset. He's scared. But now isn't the time to read Crow the riot act. That can wait until the danger is gone and Crow's back in good health.]
I'm still mad at you for that. I thought we went over talking to me. But we'll figure this out and I can yell at you about it at my leisure then, okay?
[He's mad. He's really upset. He's scared. But now isn't the time to read Crow the riot act. That can wait until the danger is gone and Crow's back in good health.]
You can yell now. Get it off your chest.
[Just in case he can't later. Crow doesn't want to die leaving Rean with words unsaid. He also just doesn't want to live the remainder of his life with unresolved guilt.]
I'm not too fragile to get angry at.
[Just in case he can't later. Crow doesn't want to die leaving Rean with words unsaid. He also just doesn't want to live the remainder of his life with unresolved guilt.]
I'm not too fragile to get angry at.
Oh, I plan to get angry. I'm not holding back because I'm giving up, you're getting an earful when we figure out what's wrong and fix it.
[He's not going to entertain the idea they can't stop whatever is happening to Crow's body, so it's not an issue.]
[He's not going to entertain the idea they can't stop whatever is happening to Crow's body, so it's not an issue.]
[Rean is treated to a big shameless WHINE.]
Reeeeean... Just get mad now! This is why I didn't tell you.
Reeeeean... Just get mad now! This is why I didn't tell you.
I should have just lied more.
[No he shouldn't have but he kind of wishes he had. He doesn't want to doubt Rean's ability to help him, but he's genuinely petrified of ending on a bad note.]
[No he shouldn't have but he kind of wishes he had. He doesn't want to doubt Rean's ability to help him, but he's genuinely petrified of ending on a bad note.]
No.
[His voice is steely.]
No more lying to me, Crow. No more keeping things to yourself. Best case, this can be handled fast. But if it takes a long time, if we're struggling to keep you together, then that's all the more reason you need to talk to me.
I refuse to lose you. Today, tomorrow, next week, next year. I know you have the dedication to thwart an army if you put your mind to it, so put your mind to staying with me.
[His voice is steely.]
No more lying to me, Crow. No more keeping things to yourself. Best case, this can be handled fast. But if it takes a long time, if we're struggling to keep you together, then that's all the more reason you need to talk to me.
I refuse to lose you. Today, tomorrow, next week, next year. I know you have the dedication to thwart an army if you put your mind to it, so put your mind to staying with me.
I'm going to.
[He is. He's going to try as hard as he can. He's just... scared. And frustrated, and angry too. He's keeping his arm over his face just so Rean can't see all those feelings spilling out.]
I just don't want to waste time not getting along with you.
[He is. He's going to try as hard as he can. He's just... scared. And frustrated, and angry too. He's keeping his arm over his face just so Rean can't see all those feelings spilling out.]
I just don't want to waste time not getting along with you.
[He's reaching out to gently move that arm.]
No time we spend together is wasted. But I don't want to spend my energy being mad when we have other more important things to deal with. You've been keeping this to yourself so long, you've probably been freaked out enough that nothing I say compares.
I just... don't lie to me anymore.
No time we spend together is wasted. But I don't want to spend my energy being mad when we have other more important things to deal with. You've been keeping this to yourself so long, you've probably been freaked out enough that nothing I say compares.
I just... don't lie to me anymore.
[Noooo don't look at his pathetic face! If Rean's going to move his arm Crow's just going to roll over and hide his face in the pillow.]
Fine. I won't.
[He'll try, anyway. Truth isn't exactly his strong suit, but he knows it's important to Rean, so...]
Fine. I won't.
[He'll try, anyway. Truth isn't exactly his strong suit, but he knows it's important to Rean, so...]
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