[He says it with force, because the idea of Rean remembering no matter what is too painful. He really wanted to be beaten. He wanted to be dragged back, and he's mourning the chance that it could happen. It could still, maybe, if he rebelled, but he's not going to. He can't. He chose his priorities a long time ago.
So for now he's turning to leave. He can't bring himself to do anything really cruel.]
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[He says it with force, because the idea of Rean remembering no matter what is too painful. He really wanted to be beaten. He wanted to be dragged back, and he's mourning the chance that it could happen. It could still, maybe, if he rebelled, but he's not going to. He can't. He chose his priorities a long time ago.
So for now he's turning to leave. He can't bring himself to do anything really cruel.]