[That hurts. Even more than before, Crow's sure that he doesn't belong back there. Even if Rean won now, how could Crow ever return to a happy peace? He's done too much. He's crossed lines he never wanted to cross.

He wants to stop, but the more he does this the harder that becomes. He feels like he's already messed up too much to recover from, and if there's no recovery why not just keep going? Moving forward, no matter the pain.

He's not hurting nearly as bad as Rean, so he can't complain. He can keep his distance though, and he's not remotely able to make eye contact.]

It'll be easier for us both when you forget.