[No part of this is better. Well, maybe actually getting off is a little better, but it comes with it's own torture as he can't even calm down, he's left frustrated, tears streaking down his face as the fucking drags him from the edge of semi-consciousness back into reality.

Being fucked.... This isn't ever how he imagined making love, not ever, and he hates it, but here they are and he shakes his head a little in answer, this is the worst.]