[He is shaking as he catches his breath, the pain shocking through him but not as bad as being pressured.

He looks up at Simon in horror.

If he refuses he'll just be forced to do this, yet he can't seem to make himself move forward willingly. Even with Gaius's warning about adapting, his own assessment of how that's the only way to survive, he just can't bring himself to move.]

I don't understand how you can find this arousing at all. What is wrong with you?!