[It's horribly vulnerable being naked and tied up under someone who doesn't see him as anything but a thing to train for money. It's seriously dehumanizing.

Worse is the way that feels good anyway, makes him whimper and arch under the touch.]

I...

[He doesn't know if he can do this, if he can try to play along. He wants to apologize to Gaius really, for trying to give him good advice he knows he can't really follow.]