["Reasonable". Goddess but that makes him feel ridiculous. It's reasonable? Reasonable... to have a crisis. Is that what this is? Does that make it reasonable to lose your damned mind and abandon everything to escape yourself? No it does not.
Although he actually feels a little better, able to separate reasonable upset from unreasonable behavior. He still feels like utter garbage but at least he's less confused. And more able to talk.]
...I died. And then I came back. But I don't remember what happened in between. How do I know I'm who I think I am at all?
[Being a little calmer doesn't make it make any more sense. It doesn't make him more willing to look into his blind spot, that being that it matters less who he is and more that he had no control in becoming that person or in what he did while he wasn't himself, and that's had such a profound effect on him that he can't have faith in his own choices and identity anymore.]
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Although he actually feels a little better, able to separate reasonable upset from unreasonable behavior. He still feels like utter garbage but at least he's less confused. And more able to talk.]
...I died. And then I came back. But I don't remember what happened in between. How do I know I'm who I think I am at all?
[Being a little calmer doesn't make it make any more sense. It doesn't make him more willing to look into his blind spot, that being that it matters less who he is and more that he had no control in becoming that person or in what he did while he wasn't himself, and that's had such a profound effect on him that he can't have faith in his own choices and identity anymore.]