[Crow drags his hands down his face, trying to find a way to relate what he's feeling. It's impossible to do so without being vulnerable, and that makes it even harder. He's never been good at that.]
Whatever I am, it's not the same as "Crow". That guy probably passed on. No reason not to, except to keep an eye on you. I'm just... I dunno. Leftovers. Or someone else entirely. But if I'm a different person, then I shouldn't be living someone else's life. Plus, as long as I'm playing Crow I can't be my own person.
The thing is, I don't really want to be anyone else. It won't change what I remember or feel... so I'd like to think I've got his soul in me after all. But if I do, I'm... I just keep thinking it's fucked up either way. I'm not even sure if my body can live like a normal person. I've gotten older, but how far does that go? What if there's an expiration date on this thing? Even if there's not... I got a second chance, right? Or I get to be Crow's second chance. I should be grateful for the opportunity, but part of me is still angry I was used all that time. So I can't help wondering if I'm really supposed to be here at all. With you. Acting like I fit in.
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[Crow drags his hands down his face, trying to find a way to relate what he's feeling. It's impossible to do so without being vulnerable, and that makes it even harder. He's never been good at that.]
Whatever I am, it's not the same as "Crow". That guy probably passed on. No reason not to, except to keep an eye on you. I'm just... I dunno. Leftovers. Or someone else entirely. But if I'm a different person, then I shouldn't be living someone else's life. Plus, as long as I'm playing Crow I can't be my own person.
The thing is, I don't really want to be anyone else. It won't change what I remember or feel... so I'd like to think I've got his soul in me after all. But if I do, I'm... I just keep thinking it's fucked up either way. I'm not even sure if my body can live like a normal person. I've gotten older, but how far does that go? What if there's an expiration date on this thing? Even if there's not... I got a second chance, right? Or I get to be Crow's second chance. I should be grateful for the opportunity, but part of me is still angry I was used all that time. So I can't help wondering if I'm really supposed to be here at all. With you. Acting like I fit in.