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I... Yes.

[He looks at Crow, serious.]

I mean, I'd like to. If you want to think about it, I was going to bring it up eventually anyway.

--Eh.

[He should have expected that kind of seriousness, but it still throws off his teasing groove. He's quickly turning red now.]

You... You have terrible timing.

Sorry... I should have brought it up better... But I am serious. I want to spend my life with you.

[So you can't just... Die on him. Again.]

Yeah, okay.

[He's not disagreeing, he's just embarrassed. He's also sitting up properly again -- or trying to. He feels a little dizzy again when he does, but he doesn't actually faint so he's fine.]

Uh... I'm not sure I can get up, so come here.

[He wanted to climb on Rean but he can't right now?? So he just reaches for him instead. Come let Crow cuddle you, Rean!]

[Yeah fine he'll climb in wuth Crow and wrap his arms around him. Honestly he's so scared of losing him, but he's determined that that won't happen so he's not going to let that get to him.]

[Good, nice. He's just going to hug Rean tight and kiss his neck, more gentle than seductive. He just wants to be close right now.]

I did say I wouldn't run off on you again. So I'll do my best to keep that promise.

[He breathes against Crow's hair.]

The more things happen the more scared I am to let you out of my sight. I want to tie you to me forever, Crow. You can't break that promise now.

Haha... I've really been a pain, haven't I?

[But he's Rean's pain, and Rean's his everything, so... They'll be okay. It was stupid to think they wouldn't.]

You can tie me down all you want, as soon as we get the doctor's OK.

[Y'know, with marriage. Or other things.]

You're the biggest pain.

[But Crow is HIS pain. He tightens his arms.]

If you say that I definitely won't be able to stop myself.

[From tying Crow down a few different ways.]

Who says I want you to?

Fine. But only when the doctor gives you the okay to walk out of here.

[Speaking of which Beatrix will clear her throat to announce her arrival so she can get to the business of diagnosing Crow. Which isn't that easy, turns out.]

Ah.. damn.

[It's... not easy at all. There's going to be a lot of tests, and for the next few weeks it'll be touch and go. Crow's admitted to a hospital and, while he pastes on the cheer, he's obviously fading. Three separate times he starts to slip -- three times, Rean has to watch the hospital staff tensely gathered, doing all they can just to keep Crow breathing. The first two times it's eerily quiet. He just falls asleep, goes limp, without any struggle.

The third time... Well, by then they've figured out it's less a real physical problem and more something else. His soul, dragged back into an artificially repaired corpse, is losing its connection. Theoretically his body should be fine, but as he struggles to stay alive the frankly bizarre mana fluctuations are tearing it up. They think they can treat it, with the witches' help, but it's going to take awhile and a lot of repeated sessions of forcefully redirecting that mana back into the correct flow until it stabilizes.

And that hurts. His whole body hurts horribly, except where it's numb. Crow does his best not to show it, but the third time he nearly dies it's a violent reaction, and he's left screaming and convulsing as nurses try to hold him down and Vita tries to get it under control. Delirious from pain and drugs and forgetting Rean's right there, Crow begs her to just let him die already.

On the upside, by the time Crow wakes up from that, things have finally settled down. It looks like, with a little time, he'll be fine. He can go home whenever Rean's ready, or has someone arranged to keep an eye on things. On the downside, when Crow wakes up, everything is dark. He can feel his fingers for the first time in awhile, but he can't see, so for a second he just thinks he's really dead. But he can still feel a tube in his arm, so--]

...Rean?

[Of course the first thing he looks for is Rean. Just like every time he's woken up since this started.]

[He was there and while he's mad about the just kill me shit he's more relieved than anything that Crow is in fact... Still here. For now. Hopefully for a long time, but that's going to be a long road with a lot of battles ahead. As soon as Crow stirs, says his name, he's lacing his fingers with Crow's, wiping at his sleepy eyes.]

I'm right here.

[His hand tightens on Rean's nervously, but he doesn't actually look at him. He's trying, but despite his pupils being totally blown he can't find his face.

He's forgotten about the asking to die thing. He was definitely not in his right mind at the time. But he's freaking out a bit now, and wondering if this means he's really not going to make it.]

...I can't see anything.

Ah... Beatrix said that was possible. It shouldn't be permanent.

[It's worrying though, since it's one of the possible symptoms that's among the worst.]

They're ready to send you home with me though, when you're ready for it.

They're-- What?

[Okay the last thing he remembers is his body seizing up in pain and being really super sure it was the end, so that doesn't make much sense to him.]

...How long was I out?

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