filetofish | PSLS BECAUSE GAY

It's kinda more than okay.

[At this point Crow's just as likely to drop the entire sexy concept as to advance it, with Rean in the room. It's a toss-up. Depends on how it goes. On the one hand he's already turned on and he's been aching for ages to move things farther with Rean. On the other hand he's not exactly done with the existential crisis and instability thing. Rean's been pushing two totally different buttons, between the fantasies and the romance and the vulnerability and the talking about distance...

Crow feels pretty messed up, in some really drastically contrasting ways. He doesn't know whether he wants to crawl onto Rean and fuck away the anxiety, or if he wants to crawl onto Rean and just cling to him. Both prospects are equally enticing. But for now he's staying in the bathtub, slid down as far as he can go without just putting his head under.

All good things in time, right? Right. So no more being ridiculous.]

[Well he has permission. So he's getting up and taking a breath to steady himself before setting his hand on the door and pausing again. It's just a little thing but it feels like a big step, whatever happens when he goes in there is going to matter somehow.

But then he's turning the knob and stepping into the bathroom, approaching the bath with quick, confident steps. He doesn't exactly have a plan, per se, but he knows what he wants to do when he sees Crow naked in the water so he just goes with it.

He kneels by the tub and catches Crow's face in his hands, leaning in to kiss him sweetly, lingering for a bit before pulling away and smiling a Crow in sort of relief. He likes this, being close to Crow, no matter how embarrassed and self conscious he is about the situation.]

Hey. I like this better, how about you?

[Saying he welcomes the kiss is an understatement. He looks startled to see it coming, but when it does he melts into it, lifting his hands to grip Rean's forearms, holding tight in case he pulls away too much. Crow feels like he's been nothing but a big fragile baby today, and that's not really untrue, but feeling that way isn't keeping his kiss from being desperate.

He gives Rean a lopsided smile, doing his best not to show too much that he's still unsteady. Goofing off was thoughtless, so it was a lot easier than addressing feelings and desires.]

Yup. You're too cute to be on the other side of a door.

[Crow is always Crow it seems, and he doesn't mind it too much, pushing Crow's wet hair back from his face.]

Honestly. You even make me chase you into the bath.

I'd have come back from the bath.

[Believe it or not! Not that he minds being chased. He leans into Rean's hand, still not letting go of him.]

You're going to get wet, y'know.

Oh no. What will I do. Water, my one weakness.

[He slicks Crow's hair back more, tenderly, despite the amused sarcasm.]

Maybe you would have to come back from the bath, but I like seeing you anyway.

...Yeah.

[He likes seeing Rean, too. Even if he just saw him a few minutes ago. Even if Crow's the one who spent the last week running.

Goddess his feelings are rough. He laughs again, just to release a little pressure.]

You make me so uncool.

[Rean makes him feel so weak, in all the best ways.]

I hate to break it to you but you've never been cool.

[He says it wryly but then cuts that with a smile, leaning his elbows on the edge of the tub.]

I like you better being a big dork anyway.

You're so mean.

[Crow lets go of Rean's arms, so he can smash his cheeks instead.]

Feed my ego a little sometimes!

Your ego doesn't need it.

[He looks long-suffering but also really happy at having his cheeks smashed. Honestly he's so self-conscious of this position but also so happy to be here touching Crow it's difficult.]

Imagine how ridiculous you'd get if I encouraged you.

Reeeean!

[He's just whining now. And flopping dramatically against the side of the tub.]

And here I thought you wanted to come in here because I'm hot.

[He grins and gently splashes Crow, reaching into the tub to get the water properly splashing up.]

Hmm, are you?

[Wow rude!]

I'm going to drown you.

Honestly, with the way you have me following you everywhere, you wouldn't even have to try. You should do something more challenging, like kissing me again.I

[He's very smug and pleased with himself.]

[Rean is the worst, because that throws Crow off and makes him blush. Who is the terrorist here?]

Rean, you... jerk.

[He's a big jerk, but Crow's still kissing him. He's also getting up on his knees this time, so he can put his arms around Rean's neck and hold on properly.]

[He might go mad with power, bullying Crow, but if it gets him kissed he's okay with that.

He wraps his arms around Crow, the fact that Crow is warm and wet and makes not escaping him, but the kiss is way more important, and his heart is just bursting with happiness.]

[Crow has absolutely not forgotten he's naked either, as if he could with Rean holding him. Even incidentally, Rean's hands touched bare skin, so Crow is dying a little. But he's not commenting, because he's too busy kissing Rean til neither of them has any breath left. He does shiver though, with open air chilly against wet skin.]

[It's really tempting to slide his hands down Crow's body but he opts instead to drag them up, into Crow's wet hair, kissing him back with warmth and no small bit of breathlessness by the time he's pulled away.]

I think I've ended up distracting you.

Maybe a little.

[He liked being distracted. But he also likes this, so he can't complain about being put back on track. Still, he'd give just about anything to feel more of Rean's hands. But maybe, ultimately, the anticipation will make it better when they get there.]

Can I make a request?

What is it?

[For being woken up by being dumped on the floor a while ago and still being really distractingly turned on and deeply embarrassed for a while, Rean is in a pretty mellow and good mood. Maybe it's just being close to Crow, feeling the relief of having him here, safe. Making out a little is also great.]

[Here he is being embarrassed again. Rean seems to root into Crow's heart, finding all the soft parts and exposing them. Making them bigger. He's far from a shy person but he's still flushed, his face just inches away from Rean's, his arms still draped around his shoulders.]

If you still want to do this, play along with me. I'll feel pretty stupid thinking about weird fantasies if you're not on the same page so you hafta get into it too.

I'm already pretty into it.

[He says softly, but he does feel a little called out because even if he's super turned on he'd still be just as happy doing nothing but watching Crow, maybe holding onto him.]

I mean all the way. You're supposed to be the boss in this one.

[This is the fantasy we picked Rean. You dug your own grave here.]

You don't have to do anything you don't want to, but it'll help if you take charge. From across the room if you want.

[Help him he's still the virgin here?]

Take charge, huh?

[That's a really tall order and he settles with his elbows propped on the edge of the tub.]

You know my only experience with this is helping Emma edit some of Dorothee's stories. You're going to have to give me some help.

Yeah, I know. Just pretend you know what you're doing.

[Crow will be good and take initiative. He just figures if they're going to talk about control fantasy it'll help keep immersion if Rean can boss him a little.

It's still awkward, a bit, but not so awkward as to keep it from working for them. Rean talking about sex at all is more than enough for Crow honestly, but there is something extra nice about sharing what he's really been thinking.

The only real downside is they're gonna have to draw another bath, 'cause now this one is cold and messy. But that's fine too! Eventually they're satisfied and warm and clean and even if Crow's a little pruny he's content. Enough to flop bonelessly back onto the bed anyway.

He's a happy cozy bird now. He's not thinking about distressing mental issues at all.]

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