[He's draping one arm over his face, but with the other hand he gives a half-hearted thumbs up. He's certainly not going to argue with Rean trying to save his life. He feels hopeless about it himself, but if he's got limited time the last way he wants to spend it is fighting with Rean. So he'll just drag himself along, continuing to move forward until Rean fixes it or his body gives out.]
[He sighs and leans forward, catching Crow's hand and wrapping both his around it.]
I'm still mad at you for that. I thought we went over talking to me. But we'll figure this out and I can yell at you about it at my leisure then, okay?
[He's mad. He's really upset. He's scared. But now isn't the time to read Crow the riot act. That can wait until the danger is gone and Crow's back in good health.]
[Just in case he can't later. Crow doesn't want to die leaving Rean with words unsaid. He also just doesn't want to live the remainder of his life with unresolved guilt.]
[No he shouldn't have but he kind of wishes he had. He doesn't want to doubt Rean's ability to help him, but he's genuinely petrified of ending on a bad note.]
No more lying to me, Crow. No more keeping things to yourself. Best case, this can be handled fast. But if it takes a long time, if we're struggling to keep you together, then that's all the more reason you need to talk to me.
I refuse to lose you. Today, tomorrow, next week, next year. I know you have the dedication to thwart an army if you put your mind to it, so put your mind to staying with me.
[He is. He's going to try as hard as he can. He's just... scared. And frustrated, and angry too. He's keeping his arm over his face just so Rean can't see all those feelings spilling out.]
I just don't want to waste time not getting along with you.
No time we spend together is wasted. But I don't want to spend my energy being mad when we have other more important things to deal with. You've been keeping this to yourself so long, you've probably been freaked out enough that nothing I say compares.
[Crow makes a disgruntled noise, but he doesn't fight Rean. He just looks at him with a troubled expression, not at all sure how to engage right now. He knows he needs to believe in Rean, but Crow's feeling pretty miserable. He doesn't want to show that though, because he's hurt Rean already and the best he thinks he can do for him is not let this drag him down too much. If he looks unhappy, he's just putting more stress on Rean, but if he lies he's also putting stress on Rean, so what does he do?]
Rean... I trust you.
[To fix this, that is. He does, at least in the part of his heart that isn't pounding at the proverbial walls and screaming.]
I swear I'm not going to lie to you anymore, okay? I'm just... mad.
[If Crow's mad or upset or whatever, he wants to be there to listen, to support him, he wants this relationship to work, long-term, forever kind of work. That means he absolutely can't let Crow die, for one, but also he needs to get Crow to open up to him more.]
[He doesn't wanna!! Goddess being honest is hard. It sucks.]
It's annoying. Those assholes are gone and they're still fucking with me. I'm not even fighting anymore! I just wanted to be left alone to live how I want.
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[He's draping one arm over his face, but with the other hand he gives a half-hearted thumbs up. He's certainly not going to argue with Rean trying to save his life. He feels hopeless about it himself, but if he's got limited time the last way he wants to spend it is fighting with Rean. So he'll just drag himself along, continuing to move forward until Rean fixes it or his body gives out.]
...Sorry I didn't tell you.
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I'm still mad at you for that. I thought we went over talking to me. But we'll figure this out and I can yell at you about it at my leisure then, okay?
[He's mad. He's really upset. He's scared. But now isn't the time to read Crow the riot act. That can wait until the danger is gone and Crow's back in good health.]
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[Just in case he can't later. Crow doesn't want to die leaving Rean with words unsaid. He also just doesn't want to live the remainder of his life with unresolved guilt.]
I'm not too fragile to get angry at.
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[He's not going to entertain the idea they can't stop whatever is happening to Crow's body, so it's not an issue.]
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Reeeeean... Just get mad now! This is why I didn't tell you.
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[No he shouldn't have but he kind of wishes he had. He doesn't want to doubt Rean's ability to help him, but he's genuinely petrified of ending on a bad note.]
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[His voice is steely.]
No more lying to me, Crow. No more keeping things to yourself. Best case, this can be handled fast. But if it takes a long time, if we're struggling to keep you together, then that's all the more reason you need to talk to me.
I refuse to lose you. Today, tomorrow, next week, next year. I know you have the dedication to thwart an army if you put your mind to it, so put your mind to staying with me.
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[He is. He's going to try as hard as he can. He's just... scared. And frustrated, and angry too. He's keeping his arm over his face just so Rean can't see all those feelings spilling out.]
I just don't want to waste time not getting along with you.
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No time we spend together is wasted. But I don't want to spend my energy being mad when we have other more important things to deal with. You've been keeping this to yourself so long, you've probably been freaked out enough that nothing I say compares.
I just... don't lie to me anymore.
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Fine. I won't.
[He'll try, anyway. Truth isn't exactly his strong suit, but he knows it's important to Rean, so...]
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[He tries to tilt Crow's face towards him.]
Hey. Don't hide from me.
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Rean... I trust you.
[To fix this, that is. He does, at least in the part of his heart that isn't pounding at the proverbial walls and screaming.]
I swear I'm not going to lie to you anymore, okay? I'm just... mad.
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[If Crow's mad or upset or whatever, he wants to be there to listen, to support him, he wants this relationship to work, long-term, forever kind of work. That means he absolutely can't let Crow die, for one, but also he needs to get Crow to open up to him more.]
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[He doesn't wanna!! Goddess being honest is hard. It sucks.]
It's annoying. Those assholes are gone and they're still fucking with me. I'm not even fighting anymore! I just wanted to be left alone to live how I want.
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[Yeah. He's got to keep moving, like always. It's just rough, right now. He's a lot more afraid of dying than he used to be.]
But I still want to kill them a thousand times.
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[He can't blame Crow really. He's going to run his fingers through Crow's hair.]
I can't say I'm not mad too.
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[Lazy for Crow anyway. He's been at a crossroads in his life, but if he doesn't die he doesn't want to regret anything.]
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[He's all for Crow moving forward with his life. He wants it more than anything, except Crow living, that's definitely the very number one priority.]
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[Crow's hobbies have not changed one bit.]
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[It's a joke but also like, something he's been thinking about a lot, maybe not the way to let that slip. But it's kind of a stressful day?]
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[Crow's taking the mention more seriously than he's making it look, but it's fun to tease Rean, especially when they're feeling so stressed.]
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[He looks at Crow, serious.]
I mean, I'd like to. If you want to think about it, I was going to bring it up eventually anyway.
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[He should have expected that kind of seriousness, but it still throws off his teasing groove. He's quickly turning red now.]
You... You have terrible timing.
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