Actually, though, he's confused about Phoenix? Definitely likes him. Definitely likes him a lot!! But he's pretty sure that's like, a bad thing. Because he got so focused on him in betrayal now H is like clearly if I feel like I like him for serious it's just lingering crazy. Alsooo he knows a lot of other people are real close to Phoenix and isn't oblivious that they probably Like him too, especially y'know. In his own unit. So he doesn't want to even think about that aspect.
BUT he's still gonna be jealous for awhile. He wants really badly to be around Phoenix but doesn't trust that in himself, so he doesn't want to be around him after all. Buuut since he "can't" cling to him and "can't" have feelings of any depth platonic or otherwise, it's frustrating and will be frustrating to see other people do those things. Which just heightens both the desire to do them and the desire not to.
It's confusing. And he knows talking to Phoenix will probably make him feel better but he doesn't WANNA because he's trying so hard to put a lid on all those things. I say this now but this'll change like, tomorrow, in some capacity, so. It's an adventure.
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Actually, though, he's confused about Phoenix? Definitely likes him. Definitely likes him a lot!! But he's pretty sure that's like, a bad thing. Because he got so focused on him in betrayal now H is like clearly if I feel like I like him for serious it's just lingering crazy. Alsooo he knows a lot of other people are real close to Phoenix and isn't oblivious that they probably Like him too, especially y'know. In his own unit. So he doesn't want to even think about that aspect.
BUT he's still gonna be jealous for awhile. He wants really badly to be around Phoenix but doesn't trust that in himself, so he doesn't want to be around him after all. Buuut since he "can't" cling to him and "can't" have feelings of any depth platonic or otherwise, it's frustrating and will be frustrating to see other people do those things. Which just heightens both the desire to do them and the desire not to.
It's confusing. And he knows talking to Phoenix will probably make him feel better but he doesn't WANNA because he's trying so hard to put a lid on all those things. I say this now but this'll change like, tomorrow, in some capacity, so. It's an adventure.
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