[Please End] Crow Armbrust ([personal profile] filetofish) wrote2018-08-10 05:14 pm

Question Meme!

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For H (Crow) in Imeeji!
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-08-10 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
H's feelings on Phoenix for now.
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-08-13 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I've been holding off because it changes every two minutes.

But basically he's just. So obsessed with and kind of in love with H? Staring at H and E for a century plus all the other mirror and associated problems has not helped his sanity at all and he has a lot of abandonment issues specifically centering around H personally. And yet he also wants to stubbornly pursue H?? But H doesn't want to date him so he's just like, in a tough position where he's too crazy and needy for H but can't bring himself to back off well and respect H's wants entirely and it's a mess.

He wants to kiss H so bad it's painful.

H is just a big mess of heartbreak and want and confusion and guilt for him right now. He's acting like, surface level sane but really his sanity is... Not? A thing? Not much of a thing. He can function just fine for the most part but his self-esteem is utterly tanked while his neediness is through the roof so it keeps being hard for him to process "H likes me actually" and it keeps getting warped to things like "I'm too damaged and weird for H to like but he puts up with me because he's good" and like, he knows, in a way, his brain is warping things, and H has been straight with him! Been honest! And that helps a lot, he's just. Not in a good enough space to not let his own severe fuckedupness twist it against himself.

It's not H's fault he's just completely having a rough time with rejection in a way he wouldn't normally, but he's absolutely having a rough time with rejection.

That said he's clinging desperately to H still wanting to be his friend, because he has so many feelings about H and while some of them are just like, plain crazy, a lot of them are just his normal affection and crush that was growing on H before that game that have just been amplified by the whole mirror stuff. There's definitely still crazy involved but a lot of it is more in enhancing and intensifying feelings that were already there and growing on their own.

Ultimately, because he knows he's so crazy right now, he really wants to respect H not wanting to be anything more than friends, and he's really glad to retain even that much, but he wants H to date him, and he knows being around H is just going to make that even more intense but he'd rather torture himself with H's company than torture himself being deprived of it, so he'll bother H plenty more and not let H push him away, or try not to. He still has the whole, "I eviscerated you sexually" guilt that is, really hard, but if H doesn't bring that up he'll try to pretend it's not there as a thing too.

He definitely thinks H is the charming and beautiful and magnetic one but like, also a jerk? Wow!! But he loves him so much, both crazily and normally. Wanting to be around H as much as possible is like, both just what he wants and also a lot of insecurity of H leaving and deciding never to come back so he's just, a little bit, vibrating about H and trying super hard not to be a creepy stalker about him.

How's H doing after the game?
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[personal profile] hashtagaesthetic 2018-08-10 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
CR MEME ME FOR SHUTEN
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[personal profile] hashtagaesthetic 2018-08-11 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
SHUTEN THOUGHT H WAS PRETTY COOL BEFORE ALL OF THAT SHIT. He hasn't really stopped thinking that but he's definitely picked up a level of wariness because he finds himself pretty fixated on H after the game given the... hundred years solitary confinement unskippable. And he figures it isn't unreasonable for the reverse to also be true! But H was specifically sure focused on him in a batshit jealousy gonna possess you to punish you sort of way so, YOU KNOW! CONCERN! PERHAPS!

That said he does intend to approach him pretty soon once he's like, convinced he's free and this is reality. He's likely to semi-try to pretend the haunted house doesn't like.... matter... let's just not mention it yeah? Yeah. HE WILL WANT TO FORGE A POSITIVE RELATIONSHIP bc he caaaan't really see himself um. Letting go of the fixations he forged during that century. Might as well force it into a good thing rather than a strictly uncomfortable or NEMESIS thing.

i'm bad at questions so i'm gonna make you ask a question and then i'll reverse you, this is totally a fair format,
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[personal profile] motorcycle_noises 2018-08-10 10:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I too wish to here about H's feelings (for Sanguine tho.)