[Please End] Crow Armbrust ([personal profile] filetofish) wrote2018-04-27 01:15 am

PSLS BECAUSE GAY

[no icons, many SPOILERS for trails of cold steel/sen no kiseki. there's also a lot of gross shit so watch your step.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:20 am (UTC)(link)
[He makes a distressed sound around the man's fingers, and he does try to bite, not exactly surprised but still frustrated when he finds he can't. He doesn't have time to make a fuss over it, with the fingers in his mouth and the hand on his chest he feels like he might faint from pleasure, from want and need, trembling until he's barely managing to keep his feet on the floor, the holograms holding him up doing most of the actual work in keeping him from collapsing.

The whine he makes against the man's skin is obscene.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
[He's going to come. He's going to come just from this level of stimulation and the hours of being on the edge of it and the hyper-sensitivity induced in his nerves by the implant. Unless he's denied that as well, but either way he's making a noise as those fingers slide over his tongue and his tongue presses up against them mindlessly, body jerking at the way the man is fondling his nipple, too sensitive and too upset to even try for words around what's in his mouth.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
[Awful. It feels awful. At least orgasm would be release but this is just... More build up. And he's starting to cry again, frustrated and scared at how out of control his own body is. Or out of his own control. It's entirely in someone else's and that's the truly awful and horrible thing.]

Sstop!

[He's slurring it from pleasure and shock at the way his nipples are being messed with, and of course around the fingers in his mouth, but still the fear and dismay is easy to pick up. Rean's always been an open book.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 10:14 am (UTC)(link)
[He's crying again, harder, because the stimulation is way too much after hours of neglect and he can't even get release from it. For a little while he tries to make some kind of words, mostly stop, but by the time the man is finished undressing he can't even be that coherent.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
Please...!

[The word is dragged out of him, shameful, making him feel distantly sick and gross, but he feels almost like he'll die if he doesn't get some release, if he's wound up like this continuously he'll go crazy. That's probably hyperbole but it is way more than a pure guy like Rean is capable of processing all at once.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Fortunately for his very first costumer Rean isn't going to make it that easy on himself, biting his lip before more words can escape. Instead of begging he just whimpers and moans, tries alternately to pull away from the fingers pressing into him and push back against them.

He wants this yes but he hates wanting it. He's clinging to whatever he can of himself, to the thought that this isn't him, if he can just overcome this and not let it break him... He doesn't want to prove them right, at the very least, that he's a whore.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
Ah--nmm!

[He can't really respond, when he can't form words. He can barely form thoughts. This is all way way way too fast and too much and he's breathing in uneven sobs. His legs spread and his body leans forward unconsciously, giving the man more access even while his mind tries to resist.

It feels like his mind is just compressing under the pleasure, all other thoughts squeezed out, focusing just on wanting more, wanting to come, wanting even to be fucked like this. Yet even thinking that is pretty shameful, and he inhales with a sharp, unhappy noise.

How long will this guy tease him this way before he gets bored? Can Rean just endure it with his nerves set to many times normal human sensitivity? He's pretty sure he can't but he can't forgive himself if he doesn't try.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 11:46 am (UTC)(link)
Nnno...

[It's a pretty one-sided conversation still, though the tone of Rean's noises is distressed denial over the other distressed and slutty moaning.

He's not trying to act like he's better than anyone. He's not trying to be better than anyone! He can't really defend himself verbally though, he wouldn't have the coherence.

But the words get to him, lodge somewhere in his chest like barbs. Making him feel ashamed for other reasons, but without really the mental capacity to understand why at the moment.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 11:58 am (UTC)(link)
[He almost screams, the noise coming out more a broken sob. It's good, but it's horrible. He hates this, but he wants more. He's a mess, and the man might be right, that he's not doing himself any favors, that he might not change anything with his struggles.

It's not really conscious thought so much as just being overwhelmed that has him crying and whispering;]

Please, please. Please...please...

[A barely coherent mantra that even he's not sure what he's asking. For this to end, for the man to fuck him, for this to be a nightmare, maybe even just to die, he feels so overwhelmed and overstimulated not existing might be the only relief from it.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 12:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[He needs to say it but he can't get the words out. Even the please is choking him, making his throat so tight he feels like he can't breathe.

He's certainly a pretty picture though, lost in pleasure so intense it's obviously painful, unending and more that frustrating, it's tormenting, really more like torture, constantly stimulating already over-stimulated nerves.

Really the man is just getting choked moans in response now, desperate but incoherent.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 12:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[The man gets two more ours of this show before whatever mental faculties Rean had remaining just break down and he's screaming himself hoarse. Countless not-quite orgasms, too much stimulation, his mind spiraling in shame and trauma topped on top of the trauma that landed him here in the first place.... He doesn't even have a single coherent thought left in his head to block out the need anymore.

At least while he's screaming he's managing words sometimes;]

Please! ...Please! Fuck me! Fuck me! LET ME COME! PLEASE!!

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 12:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's the most intense orgasm he's had in his life. The way it hits him making him bite off all sound, all breath, he can't even moan or scream, he's just falling as forward as the hands let him, shuddering, tight around the man's cock as he experiences release, finally.

If he was already sensitive from the programming before, it's going to be worse in a moment, while his body's recovering from this, but right now he doesn't realize it, when he's already struggling to not pass out with the intensity of the experience.]

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