[Please End] Crow Armbrust ([personal profile] filetofish) wrote2018-04-27 01:15 am

PSLS BECAUSE GAY

[no icons, many SPOILERS for trails of cold steel/sen no kiseki. there's also a lot of gross shit so watch your step.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
[Rean jumps at the touch, eyes widening as just that little contact makes him come with a strained yell. It's humiliating and alarming, just that touch and the sensitivity is overwhelming, has his mind nearly blank with sensation.

Worse is that he's still aroused, his skin still tingling from a single finger down his spine and the sting of the slap and that's enough to mean his cock doesn't go down at all even while he shudders in embarrassment and pleasure.]

St-stop...

[It's the only conherent wprd he manages, tears of various upset emotions falling down his cheeks.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Attempts at being nice are over and for one moment he manages a glare, pissed off and upset, but in the next moment...]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[The fingers on his skin, holding his chin up are a lot more stimulation than he can handles without crying harder, sucking in a breathe of almost pain at the intensity of just this touch.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:01 am (UTC)(link)
[It's awful that that DOES make him feel bereft. He hates that. That he could so easily want the tortuous satisfaction of contact.

This is gross, and the part of him not drowning in pleasure and confusion and fear is sharply terrified and angry.]

What... is wrong with you?

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't want to believe this could be normal for anyone, that humans can be like this really. He believes strongly that people are generally good with good reasons even for bad things.]

At least--let me understand why? Why you're okay with this?

[With hurting someone he doesn't even know for some kind of slave business. Even wrecked and scared and barely holding onto coherence Rean wants to understand people.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
No--please don't--

[He doesn't like how scared his voice sounds but this sensitivity and arousal is torture, he can barely keep his own thoughts together as it is, it feels like any moment now he'll lose it. He doesn't know how long he can stand this, when every second is a struggle.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
[Over those three hours Rean starts losing his mind. Not a real permanent sort of break, but the kind of wrecked daze one gets from a sustained, constant state of drug-like arousal.

He's crying through most of it, even the feeling of his own tears a stimulation that's way too much for him.

After three hours he's just completely out of it and desperate, squirming at times and whining at others.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[He almost sobs at the change, too out of it even for shame or embarrassment at his current state to register deeply.

He looks up at the man, head kind of leaned on his own arms. This position is exhausting to be in for three hours without the added torturous arousal, and he's really very out of it.

But he still realizes, registers somewhere, that this person is looking at him with cruelty, and it scares him. He's mad, at his own situation and at this smiling man, but he doesn't have any of the coherence to pull together a reply.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
[The touch drags a response out of him, rough need making him strain towards the man, neck bared, eyelashes fluttering closed as he whines, voice almost unfamiliar to his own ears in pure wantonness.

Is this really him? Is he really responding this way to a stranger touching him while he's naked and bound? It's horrifying but he's also really fucking turned on, the arousal muddying things.]

Please...
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
Stop.

[He has that much sense left in him, to whine the word out. Unconvincing even to his own ears with the moan in it, but also desperately sincere. His lips brushing the man's fingers as he speaks, but not really meaning to open to him.]

T-talk this out...

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:20 am (UTC)(link)
[He makes a distressed sound around the man's fingers, and he does try to bite, not exactly surprised but still frustrated when he finds he can't. He doesn't have time to make a fuss over it, with the fingers in his mouth and the hand on his chest he feels like he might faint from pleasure, from want and need, trembling until he's barely managing to keep his feet on the floor, the holograms holding him up doing most of the actual work in keeping him from collapsing.

The whine he makes against the man's skin is obscene.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
[He's going to come. He's going to come just from this level of stimulation and the hours of being on the edge of it and the hyper-sensitivity induced in his nerves by the implant. Unless he's denied that as well, but either way he's making a noise as those fingers slide over his tongue and his tongue presses up against them mindlessly, body jerking at the way the man is fondling his nipple, too sensitive and too upset to even try for words around what's in his mouth.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
[Awful. It feels awful. At least orgasm would be release but this is just... More build up. And he's starting to cry again, frustrated and scared at how out of control his own body is. Or out of his own control. It's entirely in someone else's and that's the truly awful and horrible thing.]

Sstop!

[He's slurring it from pleasure and shock at the way his nipples are being messed with, and of course around the fingers in his mouth, but still the fear and dismay is easy to pick up. Rean's always been an open book.]

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