[Please End] Crow Armbrust ([personal profile] filetofish) wrote2018-04-27 01:15 am

PSLS BECAUSE GAY

[no icons, many SPOILERS for trails of cold steel/sen no kiseki. there's also a lot of gross shit so watch your step.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-10 09:20 am (UTC)(link)
[It did not, ever, in fact, occur to Rean that sold as a prostitute was wear he'd end up. Partly it's just because while he doesn't think he's ugly his opinion on his looks isn't that high. It wouldn't have occurred to him that soft, sweet looking boy is just some people's type.

And he's just optimistic.

But it's not possible to be optimistic standing naked raising his own hands in the air while impossible holograms hold him in place. He does struggle, face red with embarrassment and heart hammering in fear and confusion as he tries to wrench his hands down and himself free of this.... This thing controlling him that he has no power over.]

No? Let's not begin? Can we not?

[He's still trying not to sound panicked even though he is. Maybe they can just talk about this?]

Can we talk about this? I don't think this is a good idea.
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-10 09:37 am (UTC)(link)
[The suddenness of that is intense, and has him red and panting, cock hard almost dizzyingly fast. He inhales sharply, reeling at this, the way his body feels almost alien to him, senses beyond his understanding, movements and reactions beyond his control. He's definitely about ready to cry already. It's embarrassing, but there's also just the horror of having no agency at all, even in what or how much he participates.]

You--don't understand. I really don't think I'm suited for this at all. I've never even had sex.

[It's not that he doesn't understand porn or pleasure or that being a literal sex slave is a thing or even the appeal of someone inexperienced, it's just hard for him to apply any of that to himself.]

Plus isn't this kind of... This kind of thing isn't--

[How do you politely say "I'm not into being sexually assaulted" to a guy?]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-10 09:51 am (UTC)(link)
Okay--but I'm not...

[He's starting to pant between words, face even redder as he realizes what's happening, how sensitive he is, how just the air on his skin feels like a caress but is definitely not enough and it's horrible.]

This isn't my thing, so please stop.

[He manages to sounds polite and firm and not like he's standing here naked and dying of arousal for that sentence, but after that he's just shivering and biting back confused, distressed, wanton whines, focusing on trying to breath evenly.

It works for a little while, he resists pretty hard. He's definitely crying. biting, his lip hard enough to bleed, but he's not making noise or anything yet.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
[Rean jumps at the touch, eyes widening as just that little contact makes him come with a strained yell. It's humiliating and alarming, just that touch and the sensitivity is overwhelming, has his mind nearly blank with sensation.

Worse is that he's still aroused, his skin still tingling from a single finger down his spine and the sting of the slap and that's enough to mean his cock doesn't go down at all even while he shudders in embarrassment and pleasure.]

St-stop...

[It's the only conherent wprd he manages, tears of various upset emotions falling down his cheeks.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
[Attempts at being nice are over and for one moment he manages a glare, pissed off and upset, but in the next moment...]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
[The fingers on his skin, holding his chin up are a lot more stimulation than he can handles without crying harder, sucking in a breathe of almost pain at the intensity of just this touch.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:01 am (UTC)(link)
[It's awful that that DOES make him feel bereft. He hates that. That he could so easily want the tortuous satisfaction of contact.

This is gross, and the part of him not drowning in pleasure and confusion and fear is sharply terrified and angry.]

What... is wrong with you?

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:10 am (UTC)(link)
[He doesn't want to believe this could be normal for anyone, that humans can be like this really. He believes strongly that people are generally good with good reasons even for bad things.]

At least--let me understand why? Why you're okay with this?

[With hurting someone he doesn't even know for some kind of slave business. Even wrecked and scared and barely holding onto coherence Rean wants to understand people.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
No--please don't--

[He doesn't like how scared his voice sounds but this sensitivity and arousal is torture, he can barely keep his own thoughts together as it is, it feels like any moment now he'll lose it. He doesn't know how long he can stand this, when every second is a struggle.]

[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
[Over those three hours Rean starts losing his mind. Not a real permanent sort of break, but the kind of wrecked daze one gets from a sustained, constant state of drug-like arousal.

He's crying through most of it, even the feeling of his own tears a stimulation that's way too much for him.

After three hours he's just completely out of it and desperate, squirming at times and whining at others.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[He almost sobs at the change, too out of it even for shame or embarrassment at his current state to register deeply.

He looks up at the man, head kind of leaned on his own arms. This position is exhausting to be in for three hours without the added torturous arousal, and he's really very out of it.

But he still realizes, registers somewhere, that this person is looking at him with cruelty, and it scares him. He's mad, at his own situation and at this smiling man, but he doesn't have any of the coherence to pull together a reply.]
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 08:53 am (UTC)(link)
[The touch drags a response out of him, rough need making him strain towards the man, neck bared, eyelashes fluttering closed as he whines, voice almost unfamiliar to his own ears in pure wantonness.

Is this really him? Is he really responding this way to a stranger touching him while he's naked and bound? It's horrifying but he's also really fucking turned on, the arousal muddying things.]

Please...
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[personal profile] awakenerd 2018-09-11 09:11 am (UTC)(link)
Stop.

[He has that much sense left in him, to whine the word out. Unconvincing even to his own ears with the moan in it, but also desperately sincere. His lips brushing the man's fingers as he speaks, but not really meaning to open to him.]

T-talk this out...

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